Who the fuck am I and what have I done with myself?!

I had a moment of absolute terror. I have begun to have feelings. Quickly. I’m freaking myself out. I do not do feelings quickly. I observe from a distance. What the fuck is this, where I want to //meelp.com/blog/402478/post_3638687.html?ANON_CONFIRM=TRUE Maren:Confusing Leo Man?(11 December 2016) Maren:Maybe those are stupid questions, but I’m very confused here.(11 December 2016) Maren:I guess [...]
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Shawnta:
He is MUCH stronger than I am and i dont know what to do or tell myself in this situation...?
(1 January 2017)

Shawnta:
I love him but I cant look at him the same way.
(1 January 2017)

Shawnta:
He has a pattern of apologizing but not fixing the behavior.
(1 January 2017)

Shawnta:
He said he was sorry, and he again apologized the next morning, but i cannot stop crying.
(1 January 2017)

Shawnta:
I do not fight with partners like this, but he comes from a family where his brothers have been arrested for domestic violence.
(1 January 2017)

Shawnta:
We are both adults in our 20s, weve been dating for a few months, and ive seen bits of anger in him before but this crossed the line with me.
(1 January 2017)

Shawnta:
All because i said i wanted to go to bed.
(1 January 2017)

Shawnta:
Once home, i was in a ball of tears and he wanted to still talk but I told him i just wanted to go to bed, so at that moment he SLAMMED the door in my face (he almost broke the door) and proceeded to yell at the top of his lungs at me.
(1 January 2017)

Shawnta:
I was with my bf on new years eve and later that night i told him i wanted to go to another party, but he wanted to go home so we just went home.
(1 January 2017)

Edyth:
Changing in the parking lot. Oops?
(1 January 2017)